Well, here is the finished version of the RPG character of Janus.
I used my usual Prisma pencils and acrylics for few details, but I feel kind of rusty after more than one year. Anyway I am enough satisfied with the result, even if can’t take off my mind that there’s something wrong in the shading. I don’t know what though. So, in the end I decided to let it be like this.
As you can see, the expression turned out to be slightly different from the sketch. In part I wanted it, in part it just turned out to be like that. I think that the not wanted part is mostly it’s due to the white eyelashes that highlight the lost gaze. However, since he’s blind and he’s just been branded as slave I believe that he has a sufficiently sad expression, but I am open to comments and curious to know your opinion about him.

Here you will find what the characters who played with him had said on his account.


Lady Alia to her assistant: “Ah, Lobelia, I knew that he would eventually cross the boundaries of Crimson Moon. His search lasted for so long! But I feel my heart ache if I think that what he wishes the most is the very thing that will cause him the greatest sufferings. […] Now please, my friend, make sure he is given a room, food and clean clothes. If we can’t mend his soul at least we can try to bring relief to his body.”

Janus talks about his research to the mysterious Sraosha and the priestess Siobhan. He never mentions that himself is the actual object of his studies.: "You see, I'm carrying out researches on a creature […]. This specimen has two interesting peculiarities: the first is that it can change its shape and dimension according to its own will. The second is that its aging process has about stopped at the end of its puberty. […] The birth of this being is dated about sixty years ago, during a period of the modern history that you know was troubled, to say the least. This led me to think that the creation of such specimen is due to a military research. Just think to the possible use of such person in an intelligence operation! But I think that something didn't work out like the creators planned. This being has great flaws and besides it has been out of everybody's control since the day it was born…and I don't know why!”

Janus talks about himself with Sraosha as they observe an ancient artefact…: I'm not a thief or anything. I'm a scholar. I just need to understand the principle of its working…to know if it's applicable to biological entities! […] Are you an archaeologist? You've a deep knowledge of the ancient times! […] So far from me. I rather am a 'man of science' I know of biology and medicine, even botanic, but nothing about legends, myths and ancient history. Very fascinating!"

…and Sraosha tries to show Janus a new perspective: "[…] Science does NOT have all the answers."

Taken from a dialogue Jan had with Siobhan. She reveals Janus her opinions about him: "You remind me of the men I knew and loved. You are very kind, but with a very strong spirit. […] Your darkness might be a bit different than most but it is not your fault though only you can control it." […] "Men are killers by nature," I said simply. "But I do not think you are. I think you fight it well enough that you are not the men I hate. You are not the type of man who would rape a woman for power and kill her children because they were in the way."

…and Janus answers back: “I don’t know which kind of man I am, Si, […] Your words hurt, I admit that, but I think that they hit me because they are true. […] I would never rape a woman and I wouldn’t harm a child. And actually, I never killed a man, but this doesn’t mean that I never thought of violence…with lust. […] What would happen if I lost such control? Which kind of monster would I be?”

After being trapped within a sword for centuries, Tira regains a human body. Janus is the first that doesn’t consider her as a simple weapon. She talks like this: "I don't care whether you're human or not...after all, i'm not human myself...and...you're the best person I've met here so far. I feel...safe...when I'm with you."

Lady Alia reveals about the origin of Janus to Tira and Liliana: “He knows nothing of his origin. He has grown up in a world where magic, demons and angels are only legends for children and he has become a man of science. He has been seeking for a logical explanation of his abnormality for years, but obviously he could never find one. Yet I know that he hates himself for what he is. He thinks he is an abomination against the laws of nature and, as such, it is his duty to act in a way that might redeem the ‘guilt’ behind his birth. He actually is an abomination, but it is not his fault. He is a good man. He is generous and loyal and capable to feel deep love and pity. He has many good qualities that he can’t see…and not because of his blindness. He can’t see the truth about himself because he does not believe in magic. And if he knew that his deformity is due to the influence of a demon, his hate for himself would only grow further…and hate never brings anything good.”

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